May16

Life is kinda good… kind of

May 16, 2012 ⋅ by Ben Baller ⋅ 11 comments

I swear this shit is crazy… Business is almost at the best I’ve ever seen it since we started this IF brand. Baby on the way and is healthy… our new home is great and cozy and I literally have everything I want and a great wife.

but

my best friend Jonas isn’t around to enjoy all this with me. shit is crazy. it’s been almost a year since his passing and besides his immediate family, I think me and his other bro Kevion are still in shock. I think about my guy every day. like damn, anytime I do something fresh or see something cool or just do anything good or even bad, I hit my dude up. No matter what shit is going on in either of our crazy lives, we always send out a text or something to send a sign out that we alright… but I felt it the moment I got the call super early in the morning. I knew my boy was gone. the shit that is killing me now is that I miss a few people in my life and I think about my boy every single day when I get a free moment or whenever I see random shit. 47′s pop up everywhere and I think once I went to see the Weeknd that shit hit me even harder since me and Jonas were on that House of Balloons tape heavy…

just letting y’all know that I still got heat coming, we are busy… I should feel blessed that my life is really good and has been amazing for the past few years and to most it’s been amazing for this whole decade, but I want more from life and it’s coming along…. but you always want to share shit with your partner in crime. I have such a small circle of “friends” and a pretty large network of connects, but we go in seasons as the game changes. that’s just the game… but whenever I get overwhelmed and get off balanced, I hit my dude up and sometimes I’ll have to say sorry or he’ll say sorry… every time either me or Jonas ever apologized to each other which wasn’t often. we’d always reply to each other “friends have nothing to be sorry about” the line from chingoo one of our favorite movies…. shit’s crazy. my guy had so much to live for and as corny as it may sound, you gotta seize the day. you gotta take advantage. and somehow find that happy medium where you save some for yourself. because these people will take everything from you if you let them. but nothing worse than not being able to properly say goodbye to a loved one. always let your friends know how you feel about them, even if it sounds light or in passing… if you mean it, say that shit. let them know.

so back to work

I’ll post up Dwade’s new rose gold chain soon, my boy Q got a sick rose gold heavy 45 carat VS rose gold bracelet… and an army cat in the middle east got some dope shit too. I passed on the Aston Martin Rapide. I actually drove it for a while and was really disappointed… speaking of disappointment. the Dictator was a fucking let down. Borat killed that and even Bruno was much better even though it was very homo, it was still way funnier. this had a few moments, but I don’t know if I’d even enjoy this on dvd or stream….. speaking of more disappointments? my lakers need to step it up, but really I have to be real and know that these cats are a wrap for this season…. I feel worse for the Bulls… BUT I will be there at the Game on Friday, sitting on the floor, feet on the wood and I will be wearing some Nike’s for the first time in 8 years. fucking crazy huh? let by gones be by gones…..

aite y’all…

god bless. got to see my mom today and that made me feel great…
saw her for mothers day too and Tory Burch featured her and my sister on her website on the front page which was kinda dope….

We built the nursery already for our son… and the room is looking really fly. I have to thank Tracy Fong who runs the illest baby furniture site there is on the planet! I’ll link y’all soon.

peace
blessings.

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COMMENTS (11)

  • MauweezieMay 16, 2012 9:50 pm

    Long time reader…Stay up and I always enjoy ur blog!

  • On behalf of Jonas' friends and famMay 17, 2012 10:16 am

    Ben, nobody on earth stalks your blog more then me. I’m too much of a coward to talk about you in front of your face even though I know Jonas’s father and family have reached out to you, I thought i’d let you know how much of a dick rider I am. Jealously is a bitch but my life sucks. But personally? I don’t even know Jonas or anything about him. I just like to hide behind computer screens because I don’t know what I am talking about. ok bye but I did hear that the leecher Kevin ended up with all Jonass gold and diamonds. how you let a guy let that happen?

  • Omar SMay 17, 2012 12:57 pm

    Hey Ben your blogs are some of the best. Honestly I read your blogs more than any other. What you talk about is real and your craft is on point. I got the up most respect for what you do. I like how you developed your business over the years and made it to what it is today. I to own my own business and do real estate and even though business is slow I try to maintain. Much respect to and hopefully when my business gets better I’ll be able to have you do a nice piece for me. One

  • mo pakMay 17, 2012 2:27 pm

    Aye homie is there a certain reason why youre gonna be wearing nikes at tmw’s game? What kind btw? 1

  • erin bevacquaMay 17, 2012 6:23 pm

    thank you Ben, you meant a lot to him
    I miss him terribly. I just want my brother back
    hope you are staying strong. you meant a lot to him
    with all my heart

  • CrazyMTFMay 17, 2012 6:37 pm

    Everything don’t stay in place as you like it you just have to love, learn, and be greatfull for what you experince in your life.

  • ChrisMay 18, 2012 10:22 am

    R.I.P. Jonas….I had the chance of meeting him(and you) @ a LRG sample sale in Elmonte..Cat was real for sure!!..Famil, Friends and L-R-G wont be the same without him.

  • JayRMay 18, 2012 11:21 am

    Recently going through something like this with a friend, glad to hear a man speak from his heart and not be a shame of it. Honestly thanks Mr Ben Baller!

  • JamieMay 18, 2012 4:28 pm

    I concur with JayR – love that you speak from the heart and you aren’t ashamed of it. You got your head on straight and know what’s really important in life. Thank you for continuing to share things about your life – the good and the bad. They inspire. So even when you get your intern, I hope that you will continue to write your own blogs because it’s you we want to hear from.

  • MikeMay 21, 2012 2:20 pm

    What’s the reasoning for not wearing Nike’s for so long? You have mentioned this a few times but I never caught the reason why..

  • LeeMay 21, 2012 4:47 pm

    Ben Baller, what is 120 years on earth? We can say R.I.P all we want, how do we know that person is in peace. There’s only one good and peace and that’s God. Salvation through Lord Jesus. After all, we are just people who need a resting place for our flesh. And when the flesh is gone. Where go the soul rest? Find peace in Jesus and live.

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